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There were over the years fewer

and fewer photos of me in my father’s

home less a pain less a confusion

to explain / what’s left of me

between frames where I catch myself

wading back from the remains 

of a dark caesar faded too far 

from the origin of an idea of a person

estranged by so many distances 

whose house they say this was 

/ my right name / here I am

wishing for you now that we are

together and apart the air

caught in the top of my lungs

will not settle and I get to scratching 

the parquet too long nails rusting

backward into my fingertips under

weight of a tone dead line and face

less transmission through static

out of a

Andrew Colarusso has logged well over 1000 hours in Animal Crossing: New Horizons.